Hey T, none of us really know what the future holds regarding out h's.
A gentle little 1x1, Sweetie. You keep emailing your h all your thoughts and from a db standpoint, it is not a good idea.
He knows how you feel, you've written it several times in several ways so now I think you should step way back and give him a chance to go through what he needs to.
I really think the best chance anyone has comes when they really and truly let go.
You really need to stop contacting him in any way unless it has to do with the bankruptcy and/or separation. These emails going back and forth really arent good for either of you.
T, let him go and move forward I know its hard, believe me, I do. Today is two years since the bomb and I still struggle sometimes. But there is no communication between us at all except when absolutely necessary and it is better that way.