It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Well, I guess nobody sees any hope for my sitch since nobody posted...... can't blame y'all. I don't see any either.

Today was the anniversary of H moving out. Been depressed today, although I tried to look at it with a positive light. I even e-mailed H about it. We had e-mailed a couple times about meeting with lawyers for the bankruptcy, then I sent him this.....

Do you realize that today is the one-year anniversary of your/our independence? One year ago today you moved into your apartment. Perhaps we should have lunch and celebrate this beginning of our new lives......?? And I don't mean that sarcastically either. It is a turning point for both of us that was for the better and should be recognized as such...... if only inside ourselves......

Take care, H.

Backslide?? Yep, probably. He didn't reply. I feel like he's a million miles away and just keeps getting further. I cried a little on D24's shoulder. I am really trying to let it go and move on. I know that's the right thing to do and I know that if I really love him, then I have to let him go because of that love. I am solid in that decision.....But, it hurts. A LOT!

But, I did go to Water Aerobics and D24 brought GD to play in the pool too. GD is 3 months old now, and she just smiles and giggles all the time!! She is just the happiest baby!! Absolutely adorable! She is my shining beacon of joy!