he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i am honest, that is one thing about me.

im not ashamed to say that i would still take him back and im still stuck in the triangle.

im also smart enough to know i shouldnt feel this way, although i cant totally manipulate my feelings.

i do well during the day, i tackle my tasks and do what i can to protect things and keep things in order.

but i am still going in circles, still thinking about him and the ow and wondering when it will all cave in.

im wondering what will happen next legally, will he pursue the separation/divorce any further.

i wish i didnt care about what he does, wish i didnt care that he is with that slime of a girl.

i wish she would leave him.

everyone tells me she will but telling me isnt enough.