thanks sanderika. i like to have someone to relate to.
its all too hard, its like the clock resets because he was home.
he had left her. he had planned for it all year and now look at this mess.
there is nothing i can do right now to change it.
im trying so hard to keep things in order, to attempt to move on, yet im still holding on to him.
everyday that nothing progresses with our legal separation/divorce, is another day that the ow isnt getting what she wants.
its terrible that im still in this triangle. i shouldnt be.
but i am.
she wants marriage, she is pushing so so hard.
if he wanted it so badly, i would think he would be pushing me.
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
