Sandi I will post more later but for right now I have this to say. I have tried so hard to make peace with my xh concerning everything. It hurts me to no end to see how mad he is with me. The anger bothers me so much for some reason. My main problem right now, as far as xh is concerned, is trying to stop the anger he has toward me. I want us to be civil so badly it kills me inside. Just being honest. I know this is a problem. How can I stop myself from wanting to fix my xh's anger??? How??? I have left him messages before telling him not to worry that I would take care of things on my end and that I was glad he is happy. I have tried everything, even giving him money in the begginning, to ease the hatred. He would catch us being nice to one another and instantly start up the anger again. I have GOT to STOP trying to make peace. What can I do to stop this. It is an internal battle...truthfully an internal battle. I am ok that we are divorced and my xh may never return. I am NOT OK that we will NEVER be civil to each other. Sad isnt it? Sad for me.
Another question Sandi is this: My xh is soooo nervous when he talks to me (past wise). AND people have told me is acts "paranoid" all the time. Why the nervousness and paranoia?
As far as the cell goes. My xh bought the phone for him and pays the bill.
