Hey Aj, I dont post to newcomers much. Because I am afraid I can be bad influence. When people get here, are scared and get easily influenced by the stories they read and some times project other's outcome to their sitch. So, I try to be quiet most of the time. But you strike me as a person that can judge and use only what is good for you. In the middle of the mess you always keep your cool and use your brain. I admire you for that. (I always read)
At this point, my advice is: consistency. Your actions and words need to be consistent. Make your R a safe place for her to return to. You will do fine.
Stop worrying. Just STOP. Trust things will turn out how they should and with THAT attitude things will change. This is not the end of you. It is the beginning. K
Thanks guys. That's true - this situation will turn out how it is supposed to. Or more specifically, it will be what it is as we get there.
I'm just tired. I'm just at a point where I know I love her, but I don't know that I can continue much longer. She may be picking up on that, but I'm not able to change my path at the moment. I'm very weary and holding on with fingernails and grit
I need to stop tiring myself out and start working on me even more. I like me and I still need to know more about me. I can't get sucked onto the insanity-coaster but I fear it may be too late.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
Man AJ, I do see quite some positives in your sitch. But it will be important to stay consistent and keep giving her your unconditional love (like Kalni said).
I just can't believe how much your posts sound like the thoughts in my head. I am getting tired too. Of the constant giving and receiving nothing, it's emotionally draining... But here and there I receive something from W and it gives me some fuel to keep going. You see positives in your sitch too now, so draw strength from that.
I'm just tired. I'm just at a point where I know I love her, but I don't know that I can continue much longer. She may be picking up on that, but I'm not able to change my path at the moment. I'm very weary and holding on with fingernails and grit
I need to stop tiring myself out and start working on me even more. I like me and I still need to know more about me. I can't get sucked onto the insanity-coaster but I fear it may be too late.
AJ
Bull$h1t - you can do this AJM - i see it in every word you type. Hang in there boed!
