Hello everyone, sorry for not posting much, I actually am not getting much time to myself these days!! Ha, to think I would find that a problem. Rob, BND, thanks for your concerns and keeping up with me, I really appreciate it! You too Jeff grin I am well aware of the issues he has and we have spoken about it so I dont disregard it at all. His exczema is very bad, worst I've ever seen it and he said its stress related. He went to the Drs and got back on ADs yesterday, his own doing. I only found out then that he stopped taking them last October, but he knows he needs them as he still gets down days.

Julia, yes, I think K has it about right too and yes, it was all his decision and I let him 'drive' it. So he asked me to give notice and I cant move out of here until 15 August, but I think I will be moving into his place sooner. We changed the plan, I offered to live at his place as then he will feel more ownership and it will be more of a fresh start for us.

K, no your English was perfect as ever!! So last night I made my first ever demand, shall we say, I said I felt sad (packed up last of my show and left college) and I felt like I needed a treat, a romantic meal! And he replied that he had already intended to cook me dinner, which he did.

So alot has happened/been said and I have made him cry twice without meaning to !! We had a BIG talk Saturday night, he started it, we were in the pub with friends, but we had only had one or two drinks so it wasnt alchohol induced.

He hardly spoke to the friends we met (unlike him!!) but hugged and kissed me alot and chatted/flirted with me (this really has been like dating all over again). He picked me up and put me on a step at one point so we were at perfect kissing height, for example. Then he got very serious, he said...