WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

CIPA,

Sorry to hear about the ending of your Father's Day. With all due respect to your older couple friends, I think the soulmate thing is a load of BS. Anyone, any marriage can work if people work on it.

The reason why second M might seem to work better is because they gloss over alot of the issues they had before. We all know that. But oh well, that's why DR warned us about "well-meaning" friends.

You're still talking to her WAYYY too much. you've got to cut back on that. I guess when I was S, it was so much easier because my W never called. Period. She still doesn't when she's not at home.

Do I miss it? Hell ya. But I look at the fact that she's home now and I try to work on that. You haven't had that detachment happen yet.

Work on that first. Good luck on the job hunt.

Oh yeah, and I made it for 72 hours without posting.

Congrats on staying forum free for 72 hours. I took it in slices of 24 hours - can't remember all the stuff that's goes on past that so if I don't journal here, I won't remember it.

I know we seem to be talking a lot lately. I think between her worrying I'm going to slip into a depression and do something stupid about my job loss and the fact that I'm watching the kids more often now (instead of school/camp), we are seeing each other more. During those times, I try to be the best CIPA I can be.

I never call her to chit chat and when she calls me, I try to keep it short and be the one to end the call.

This morning at 6:15 AM, she called to ask if I heard if there was anything going on near her apt as she's heard a lot of sirens and helicopters going by. I told her I didn't but would turn on the news. At 7:00 AM she asked if I heard anything. I said that the only thing on the news was the DC Train crash. When she dropped my 7 year old off at home, I asked how was traffic and if she had seen/heard anything. She said no, and chit chatted for a couple of minutes before she asked if I could hug her to crack her back. I did but it wouldn't crack. So then she asked if she laid on the floor if I could massage/press it as it was really bothering her. I did and then when I gave her a hug to crack her back, it cracked. I joked "Was it good for you?" and she just smiled and said "Thanks".

When she got in the car to drive away, she did look back and waved bye when she saw me.

So goes this friendly dance. I just hope it doesn't stop as just friends......