I have suffered from depression badly too. In fact it is something I have to watch all the time. The only thing that gave my H hope was to actually show him that I was changing. I know with depresion that isn't easy and it takes time for the meds etc to kick in. I also was lucky to have private medical care and I have had a lot of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy to help me combat the depression. However some of it is caused by physical illnesses I suffer from.
Please be careful on the suicide side of things. Threats can cause you to have your children taken away. I had a really good Dr. and psychiatrist and they looked after my interests well after I tried to commit suicide- without them I am sure I would have lost custody of my children. My constant depression drove my H into the arms of another woman. You know what he told me the reason was that he looked at someone else....."She smiled". I had forgotten how to do that.
I know when you are depressed smiling is the last thing you want to do....but sometimes girl you just have to fake it. You need to remind your H of the woman he fell in love with.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
