Cat - no, I don't live for the times he visits. In fact I honestly wish he would just decide to disappear from our lives entirely. He constantly talks about moving to San Francisco and I wish he would just do it! I don't love him anymore and there's not even a shred of physical attraction between us now - in fact he pushes me away if I as much as try to put my hand on his arm. I haven't filed for D b/c 1. his health insurance is fantastic - I would lose it and my employer doesn't offer it; 2. I am a Christian and have been told that it should be my non-Christian husband that should file; 3. My H has stated that if we do get a D, he will petition for weekend custody and even though I believe he wouldn't use it even if he had it, I don't even want him to have the legal recourse to take my son away from me overnight. My H lives with his mother, and my son is literally TERRIFIED of my MIL - she is very verbally abusive to pretty much everyone and she used to slap him around when he was younger before I stopped letting him visit her w/out me present. And I know my H well enough to know that he wouldn't think twice about leaving S at home alone with his mother should he get called into work on a visitation weekend.
