Thanks everyone for the Happy Father's Day wishes.

I made it to 72 hours without posting, so that's pretty good.

Let's see.

My weekend was pretty good. My youngest daughter got sick on Saturday, and we were supposed to go to my W's aunt's celebration of being a nun for 50 years. So I stayed behind with my D while W and the oldest went. She came back around 5 and we had a pretty good dinner and we had fun. Nothing unusual.

On Sunday, we took my youngest to see Sesame Street Live. Beforehand, my W gave me a hug and a Happy Father's Day gift from the girls. Two workout shirts, a DVD of "The Big Bang Theory" and some snacks. After the show, we went out for a lunch which was pretty good. She let me try some of her food and drink which is something she balked at last year. The evening was uneventful as my oldest D got sick as well.

So Monday, I stay behind to watch my two D's while W goes to work. During that time, I clean the house and prep some dinner. My W calls during the day to ask how the kids are doing and actually stays on the line for a few minutes. When she gets home, she's still a little stand offish, but whatever.

Everything at night turns out well and the same thing, we're laughing, joking, etc. I really don't know how she shuts off her intimacy like that. It's like a switch that she can turn on and off at will. She wants to be my friend but not intimately. I am missing it.

Before going to bed, I ask her if she got the text materials I sent away for her nursing test. It was supposed to be a surprise, but I hadn't heard anything from her, so I was just checking. I told her about it and she seemed surprised and just said she didn't get anything. She said "thank you" then rolled over and went to bed.

And that was my weekend in a nutshell. I definitely saw glimpses of my old W coming back, but I'm not holding my breath or jumping the gun like I did last time. I'm going to take it one step at a time.

What's everyone's thoughts?

Oh yeah and today was the anniversary of our first date. It did suck remembering that. Plus it's our birthdays on Saturday, so if anyone has any suggestions, I'm still open.


M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER