hi, i will start with the facts. Been married 19 years and have 3 boys 17, 14 and 11. Hubby left mh 4 months ago after we had had an argument and hadnt spoken much for 2 weeks. He said he wanted space but because i was upset i didnt give him it and after he had been gone a week i threatened suicide. I was visited by the mental health crisis team who talked to me and it was realised i had started with depression again following an operation last year. It was agreed i would see my doctor to go back on ad's as i have suffered depression before but had recovered well and learnt a lot. A week later hubby came back to give our marriage ago. Looking back it wasnt the right thing to do as i hadnt had chance to control my depression but the boys and myself wanted hubby home. The trouble was it was like walking on eggshells all the time and we kept having little arguments and hubby kept saying he had made a mistake coming back. After 4 days he left again and the only reason he can give for wanting to end our marriage is he has had enough of us. Hubby is now living in a flat but is incontact with home everyday, either phoning or picking up or dropping off the boys. I am finding it hard to accept that it is over and have struggled with my depression even though i have been having counseling. I know i have backed hubby into corners with some of the things i have done and said but that has been due to the fact i am hurting. When i mentioned divorce he has said if thats what i want to do it. He knows i love him and want to make a go of our marriage but he just says he isnt coming back. I am now trying to give him space etc but am worried its to late. I know i have to get better for me and am waiting to go for cbt. Will post more details later, need to go to work.
