Today was a pretty great day! one bad thing but it didn't happen to me and actually opened up my afternoon...
I am out of town for a teacher's conference 3 hrs from home. The hotel having the conference is situated on a giant lake, and has its own waterpark as well. I am staying in a different hotel but drive to the nice one for meetings.
This morning we had our sessions, then got bag lunches. I walked down the bike/hike path to a lighthouse and sat on a bench by the water to eat. Lovely!
Then my afternoon session was canceled after I got there. The man presenting collapsed in front of the doors to the conference room. He had a heart attack and could not feel anything!?! Never heard of that, with a heart attack. Anyway he had to be airlifted to a bigger city for immediate surgery...
This left me with the entire afteroon free. So I went back to my hotel and changed to workout gear. Went back to the lake and rented a bike. Went on an 11-mile ride around the lake. then came back and got a day pass to the waterpark. Spent the afternoon lounging by the pool. Got a good tan and exercise!
Went back to my room, cleaned up, and went back to the fancy hotel. had dinner in their restaurant overlooking the lake. Then sat outside again until dark. I was reading this evening. got a book called "Boundaries in Marriage".
I am learning so much about how I did not enforce boundaries/communicate boundaries so much of the time. and how he did not respect the ones I had, in a lot of cases b/c I did not enforce them! And how I rescue him so much of the time. He never has to really feel the consequences for his choices. so why change? Anyway that doesn't let him off the hook for all the terrible things he has said and done. but it empowers me to take backcontrol of myself and my life even more.
It has been so great this summer to figure out what I like, who i am. Planning and arranging for the landscape company to come and put in the flower garden and patio that I want to have. doing Relay for Life b/c it was important to me. Getting my own golf clubs and golfing without Dan. Even renting the bike today and tooling around by myself for 90 minutes. Feels so good to make my own decisions without trying to please anyone else. That sounds a little selfish as I write it, but I know it is a good thing for me to do.
