Hi all......I know I am writing a lot, but if I get a moment, I just want to keep my head on straight and it helps to write my thoughts and experiences out.
So, we were doing well actually and then today I got a letter from his lawyer with a date for our D...its Sept. 11th (our court date) and it is the day after our anniversary. I just lost it. I didn't lash out but I did start to cry...the tears just kept falling. I finally just excused myself and took a few kleenex and went on the balcony. I collected myself and came back. The tears were still flowing unfortunately. He apologized. He said he couldn't have known when the courts would set the date. I validated and told him I didn't blame him. I said its just a piece of paper. Its ok. Its just hard sometimes. He was very understanding and I think he felt really bad.
He said "can we talk". i said "ok".......he said, "Have you thought about what I said yesterday about starting over next year this time?" I said "Yeah, I am just not sure...it seems like a lot is being asked of me and I have to think about it." He said, "You know this is the most fun I have had with you in 2 years time. I really think I need time to figure out some stuff I am going thru and deal with my own issues. I don't know....I may be having a MLC, maybe."
HELLO????????? DID HE ACTUALLY SORT OF ACKNOWLEDGE THIS????
Anyways, we went out for dinner. He said some of the same stuff about really enjoying himself with me. As we were leaving he said "Its like I'm discovering my woman all over again" He stopped and I just pretended I didn't hear him....cuz I think he shocked himself and I didn't want to add.
Should I have said something?????
Anyways, we came back to the apartment. I said I have just one question "how is it different in your mind if we put the D on hold or if we go ahead with it and then try to work things out later??" He said he needs to think about it.....he's not sure.
I left it at that and now we are just hanging out. OK. should I do anything else?????
