All of that said, the ache in my gut is gone because I know I will be ok no matter what. And, I know that without us both changing, it can't happen.
That is the leap of faith required to go across the chasm from fear to love. You only control you once you jump. You really don't have control of him now it's just part of the illusion that fear shows you. Handle it.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
