Seperated

[LitlHopeAlwys]

First Happy Belated Father's Day to all the Dads out there.

I had a great weekend with S3, we played and hung out and I took him for a mountain bike ride through the woods, he loved it.

W stopped by unexpectedly Sunday afternoon, she brought me a fathers day gift from S3, a picture frame he made in school. She also handed me a card from him and a gift bag and card from her. I haven't opened the bag yet, but she signed the card Love - not sure if it means anything is a positive sign or no sign - I don't remember how she signs the cards to everybody else.

She said she would be back later to pick up S3, try that instead of me dropping him off since he gets upset when he realizes it. She came back when it was dark to get him, came in the house, and S3 right away says he doesn't want to go with her. She didn't even try and take him, asked if it was alright if he stayed - Yeah it's great!

As she was leaving we saw some of the neighbors and spoke with them for a brief time - after as she was getting in her car - we hugged and I wished her a good night and slipped and said I love you. I caught myself right away, and apologized. all she said was its ok.

Today I'm just a wreck - I spoke to her once this evening and she kept asking me whats wrong. I tried to tell her nothing - guess she could hear it in my voice. Said she would call later had to get S3 in shower and bed.

Lucky kid is spending next 10 days in Florida with my parents - wish I could just go and get away from everything with him.