he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

thanks, i know u are...u are right, im not ready to let go completely. and if i thought i was and let go for a day or 2 or 3, i know i would revert right back.

im doing better today than yesterday. i have to chalk it up to a bad day and i know it will happen again. and again. maybe i will handle it better next time.

im proud of myself for pulling out the resume. i know im such a smart girl with such potential work-wise. but gosh - i was the happiest stay at home mom there was! i was not the type that didnt appreciate being home, i wasnt the type to find a sitter and leave my son home when he was little to do my own thing all of the time.

i loved and appreciated that i could be home. it hurts to think what he did to us financially. but oh well for now.

i spoke to him today, im better when i dont talk to him or see him, but that isnt so realistic. he sounds terrible and told me he isnt do so well either. who knows with him.