KAW.........I don't know what to say...isn't that funny..sometimes I rattle on. I know I asked before but do you think om is just in her head? Do you know who he is..where he is...do you think they meet..so many "do you's"
Seems like her just journaling things..calling him..what kind of an "A" is that...I am sure what you read is hard to overcome..so like the others maybe drop the rope for now...step back..it wears on you after awhile on what to do next...that's when you have to refoccus on yourself...
what do you feel like you need right now..are you content with the safe stuff...or time to rattle things...r talk...and I know for one that the safe stuff is easier than facing the talks....oh it is so hard.

YOu will do what you feel is right... when the right time comes..

Sue