Shiny,
The wisdom comes from Michelle's books and these boards!!!
The insight comes from the school of hard knocks ... most of them from CAW!
Quote: Does CAW have ANY idea how lucky she is??:
Is this a trick question, Shiny? Well, if I use her words from that dreaded journal ... "she been told and her head tells she thinks she should feel lucky, but her heart doesn't. Now that was three months ago now, but from her telltale cyclic moods, I'd say not much has changed since. Some periods she seems to try to act "as-if" ... others days she still is off in the distance ... its swing of a pendulm I've become quite familar with. I get such positives like the letter to my sister last month and such affections like in the early days ... then I discover she is still keeping in contact with OM. I unintentionally found info just today (unbeknownst to her), she used her cell phone to call OM three times since, 09/15, 09/26 & 10/12. The most recent was when she went to D18's candle party she was hosting. The call was made between the time she left there and when she came home. which coincides with the current downturn in her mood around me lately again. Notice I'm on in the evening tonight.
Oooops! Shiny little unbeknownst to you did you expect your question to open such a can of worms!
I guess its just bad timing. I just can't get the last entry she made in her journal back in August out of my head ... "I know one day we will be together." ... Every time she contacts OM, she is keeping that thought alive and lately, I just feel like this is all slipping away again.
How many times can I continue to draw her back? ... this isn't a rollercoaster ride anymore ... its a tug of war ... I feel I no longer have the strength in my grip that I once had...
Well, if I use her words from that dreaded journal ... "she been told and her head tells she thinks she should feel lucky, but her heart doesn't. 
Now that was three months ago now, but from her telltale cyclic moods, I'd say not much has changed since. Some periods she seems to try to act "as-if" ... others days she still is off in the distance ... its swing of a pendulm I've become quite familar with. I get such positives like the letter to my sister last month and such affections like in the early days ... then I discover she is still keeping in contact with OM. I unintentionally found info just today (unbeknownst to her), she used her cell phone to call OM three times since, 09/15, 09/26 & 10/12. The most recent was when she went to D18's candle party she was hosting. The call was made between the time she left there and when she came home. 
