Hi people, haven't been on for a long time. I have been managing to claw myself out of the hole I dug for myself when I called my H and accused him of cheating, before my last post.
I have been sticking to my 180's and a lot more changes.
Two wks ago, my H and I had an argument, he reminded me he wants a D, I told him fine but I will contest it b/c we haven't tried anything to fix our M. He told me to get over it, we're done, move on like he will. He looked up D info for our state and was telling me everything we need to get done. I said I already knew that, surprised he asked me how, I told him b/c I already looked it up as well. I said you know what, fine File, I'll sign your papers, I won't contest a thing. We left it as that.
He went out for the day, that evening he told me he looked up MC, and asked if I think that will be best, I told him I know of a 7 wk M program we can try, since MC failed us before. He agreed.
So now we are in a sort of R mode. We are going to do the program, he said that even if it hasn't worked in the 7 wks, he's not just going to get up and leave. He will continue to implment what the program recommends.He wants us to do things that will bring us closer together. He said he'd like to try to start as new as possible, he wants to try to forget as much as the past hurts as he can. He also said he wants to try to work on him wanting to stay in our home, for himself, right now he's still there b/c of our 2 daughters.
Things are still the same, no affection, we do still ML, that has never stopped in this 8 month seperation. The kisses are still on the cheeks, but we will work on us.
Friday we went on a date, but there was no type of affection. Yesterday was our 13th anniversary, and he did not acknowledge it as he did our wedding anniversary in March when he bought me flowers.
Hopefully our 7 wk program works and we can build up our M again.
