so i just spoke to h, he called again to talk to me. i didnt want to get on, son gave me the phone.

i said, i dont want to hear it, i dont have the strength. he said neither does he but my messages arent helping.

he was nice, he said he is struggling too, having terrible days too. i dont know what he meant in what terms but i was glad to hear he isnt happy.

it may be more financial, dont know.

he didnt say however, but this is what it is and we are splitting. he has made no mention of the letter from his attorney. dont know what it means.

it may mean nothing.

i did say i was sorry for the messages, not because i didnt want to annoy him, more because it wasnt like me.

and i wouldnt be surprised that the ow is the one that saw some, or saw he got a message in the middle of the night...


me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09