I told everyone that I love my husband and my family and I will try my hardest to keep us together. (at the meeting)
I know you mean it, but I have to say i think this should have been omitted from what you said at the meeting. I know it's a small town and everybody know everybody and generally way too much about their lives. Esp. now, he probably feels like the bad guy anyway (and I know you think he is), having everybody lining up to agree with that does no good. It won't bring him home. He needs to be shown compassion (yes, I do know how hard that is), esp. by you. When you remind him about how your willing to "fight" for your family etc, it may just be reinforcing that he isn't "good enough". Let it lie.
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Who knows anymore. In my heart he just said that about dropping the divorce to get even with me. He loves to play mind games. Says he Loves us, then don't hear anything from him.
Do you really think it's mind games? Sounds to me like alot of people who vascillate. Don't latch on to every word or action.
Yes, I know your spinning and I know how hard all that I'm asking you to do is, but is what your doing helping?
The stress is a real nut cracker. Make sure you take good care of yourself, eat well and get plenty of rest and please exercise. I am in no way shape or form the fitness queen, but I can't tell you how much it helps.
Sorry to hear about you leg, hope it feels better soon.