d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Grace,

Thanks for keeping me in track. I really felt good about the meeting w/town board. Alot of people there and I never said anything to hurt anyone. I only spoke of the troubles that has been associated with that place that he frequents.

I told everyone that I love my husband and my family and I will try my hardest to keep us together. (at the meeting)

But you were right, it got back to my H and he said he was almost ready to call off the divorce but now he's going ahead. I told him to come over and I'll let him read the letter that I read outloud. It was over a renewel of a liquor license. And I opposed it, because with the alcohol and the establishment together it ruins families.

I told him I'm sorry, but I will fight for my family to stay together. The guts of me to get up is nothing short of a miracle. Of course I had nothing to lose. I felt like I already had lost my family. I also told him that the town are the ones coming to me telling me how sorry they are to hear about our problems, and they see his vehicle at the place all the time. I told my H the same thing I told the people who came up to me in these past months. I love my husband and my family and hopefully we can find a way.

Who knows anymore. In my heart he just said that about dropping the divorce to get even with me. He loves to play mind games. Says he Loves us, then don't hear anything from him.

I guess I'm just tired, and stressed. Yesterday I mowed the lawn (3 hrs.) and alot of trimming with my electric weedwacker for around the house. Well my D4 was in the house calling for me and I sat the weedwacker on lawn. Took care of her, came outside and just read a nasty text from H. Stressed from all of it I bent down and hit the trigger on weedwacker and the strings wrapped around my legs. My D4 freaked out and I know I was prancing around. Those things really reek havoc on the weeds and they sure do on skin too. Still in alot of pain today but at least its only from my knee down to my ankle.

Way to stressed, between lawyer calling or daycare calling me with questions lately. I feel about ready to crack !!

Take care Grace and I hope things are going ok for you.