total quarter life mlc

[mdoodles]

well yesterday i had a DAY where i cried for a while!

sometimes it just hits me, so hard.

i really truly have been on such a rollercoaster. i am so used to waiting for him, so used to him saying he is coming home, so used to talking to him and making nice, so used to the excitement of him really leaving the ow and coming back to me.

and then he was here. to be honest, NOT so exciting. things were weird, the store we opened was not helping because it was not doing as well as we thought it would.

and, he hadnt fully cut off contact with her.

now he is gone and back to her and leaving me again. yet acting like he isnt so sold on it. somedays yes, more often than not, no, acting totally ambivalent.

its too much for me. add in the financial disaster, coming from us being so financially secure, and im ready to explode!