he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

im attempting to redeem myself from my awful day yesterday. it was one of those days where u just cry, think irrational and cant seem to get out of it.

so today i went to the gym, updated my resume and already sent it out for a job in a local school district that would start in the fall. im thinking to lean towards schools for the hours and school vacations to coincide with my son. so we will see.

i also finally got through to the person i need to speak to about getting into this really nice apt complex. they run special pricing for unique situations and i certainly fall into that!

i cried my hardship and already filled out the form and faxed it back.

im getting there. minute by minute.

im trying to organize what i can in my life and while i do that, im not thinking as much about him.

i hate that i still want him back, im smart enough to see that i shouldnt, but my feelings arent there yet.