The last 2 days have been kind of rough. I am fighting tooth and nail with GAL. Part of it is the anniversary and the other part is lingering thoughts of just giving up. Everytime I reason through that though I just feel terrible. I am just not ready to throw the towel in this early. I know I shouldn't give up now we have only been separated a month. Anyway, it looks like during the anniversary she poured herself into an art project which was a tribute to the deceased BIL. A good thing I think. I was invited to friend the FB page that the tribute pictures are on. Either progress that she wants to deal with things a little better or be very active during the anniversary so as to not think too much about it or both. I did say in an email that I was thinking about her. No response. I got a text from her about us needing to exchange car keys. I told her tues would be good for me and she said ok. Pretty cold
I am beginning to wonder if she is having an EA with one of her old college buddies. In the latter part of her being in school these two were best of friends (other than twin sis of course). When I first started dating my wife she told me about him and said that he was kind of a pseudo- bf but she didn't have those feelings for him. This guy went through a sexual molestation as a child so apparently he is rather incapable. They just weren't able to quite seal the deal I guess. I know he wants kids and she does not (neither do I.. I decided to get snipped when things between me and my W were really heating up). Anyway she and the twin have been posting a lot of pics of their school years and his pic has popped up a lot and they are leaving comments with each other. I am not really sure how they could really have much of anything going on as wrapped as my W and twin sis are but I am not ruling it out. It would not be a deal breaker for me if they were because I don't think they quite have what it takes to be together. And I know she did marry me for a reason even if she thinks we didn't get to know each other well enough. EA's nearly always end right? I can't even be sure if there is one and since we are separated I probably need to leave it alone for now.
I went by Friday to get some stuff. They weren't around. I noticed that the wife's file with divorce papers was still sitting on it's desk collecting dust. Also on FB my wife took down her relationship status of it's complicated to no status at all.. I decided to change mine to single shortly after.. I am sure they noticed because they both exited FB chat shortly after.. I felt terrible about that and didn't want to put any msg out there that I was done so I shortly changed mine to no status... ergh.. this could have probably been an error on my part but oh well.. like I said the last couple of days have been rough. The pics of me and her on FB and her other blogs are still up.. I am not really trying to analyze but I did want to vent because I am getting WAW'ed left right and sideways and I know I should not believe anything I see..
anyway, I feel better now. On to work! It is my first solo management shift after my promotion!
