I knew MFT would beat me over the head for what I did and yes it is some of the old me coming through and yes I know better and yes it was a DAM move.
I talked to Ken on Friday and he hit me also and helped me to see things differently. He also gave me some ideas on what I should do and how to proceed from here.
WT, not sure how much patience I have left. Most of the time I have alot and feel I can wait till she is ready. But then there are those time that I can't. Its not often but it does happen.
It confuses me sometimes. I know what I want but its hard to know how hard to push for it and where I should sit back and wait. Its knowing how fast to push somethings and to go slow with other things.
I FU the other night but I did talk to her and I do think she understands better now where I am coming from and things went well this weekend after I got back from toronto.
Also we did text and email each other while I was driving to and from Toronto and while I was in Toronto. The emotional connection is getting stronger and I am glad about that but I still need the physical connection. I went about it wrong and do need to be more open in telling her that and that is something else Ken told me.
My W did call me today and invited me out to lunch for my birthday and that has not happened in I could not tell you how many years if ever. And that tells me alot.
