he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

thanks guys. i am really really struggling. moreso than usual.

i think this crummy ny weather is depressing, my time of the month does not help my emotions either.

everything is making me cry. i hate crying. i dont even have the strength anymore to cry.

im trying to focus and cant. trying to think one step at a time, and cant seem to right now.

im waiting for these moments to just pass.

im not ready to let go, but i know i have to. but knowing and doing are 2 different things. i can let go for alittle and then i stop.