Oh. My. Goodness! What a weekend. On Saturday, I went to the gym and after I worked out, I showered and did my hair and makeup- the whole she-bang. I looked nice and I felt good. Then I spent the afternoon preparing a fabulous father's day for him. Then he was so quiet that he said almost nothing all evening. He decided to make a fire in the little fire-pit so the kids could roast marshmallows, but they really just eat them out of the bag. That ended up making us late getting the kids in bed (which he did not help with), and then, I had to shower to get the smoke smell out of my hair. There I was- wet head (getting frizzy) and kinda irritated and no longer looking or feeling good. He continued to say nothing and give no hint about the evening's furthur activities, so I took a sleeping pill at bedtime. When we went to bed, he asked why I wasn't wearing my new pj's that he liked. Arrgghh. I said that I thought he wasn't feeling like it, and then I fell asleep. OK, so he did a lot of stuff that he does when he's not going to ML that night, but I will admit that I was a bit passive-aggressive. I was just irritated with him.
On Sunday morning, I woke up and decided to just let go of what had happened the day before. I had his Father's day cards ready on the table and his big gift hidden in the back of my car. I also put a mushy card in his car for him to find later. We had a full day of activities planned, and we had a lot of fun with the kids. I wore some of my new feel sexy clothes, and I did feel sexy. When we ML that night, He TALKED. He asked me, in the sexiest voice I have ever heard come out of him, if I liked what he was doing. Did I ever! I knew it was in him. I knew that he had a side that was hot and sexy and a bad boy. I think I got a little glimpse last night. I see that he is trying. He talked! He isn't asking me to ML anymore, but just starting in. He isn't changing the subject right after we ML to something else entirely. That is some pretty fabulous progress.
I am wondering if he was doing the rubber-banding or man-cave thing on Saturday. He wasn't mad, he was just absent. Now that I have a little distance from it, I guess I should not have been so irritated with him. He did bounce back closer than ever the next day.
We are going to see the MC today. This will be the long awaited first visit that he is thinking we don't really need. I am trying not to let my expectations be too big, cause that could really cause some serious grief. I have really no idea what will happen. I am still wondering what the big issue was that he said was his problem. I am hoping that he will share that. I am going to really stick to the fact that we DO NEED MC and not let him talk his way out of it. He is trying to work on things right now, but he could stop trying when the pressure's off, and I don't want to go back. I am also going to be as positive as I can be, cause he is really trying so hard, and I do want to encourage him to continue.
