Doing my best, I think

[ernest88]

I had to go back to Toronto and Wednesday night I was thinking my W would come to bed early since we have been getting along better. She did not and I was irritaded and ended up sleeping on the couch.(Yea I know no expectations)

one word

DAM

The next morning after I got a shower she asked why I did that. Told her I could not sleep. Then she asked me if I was going to give her a hug which I gruggingly did. Then she asked if I was mad at her and I said no.

that was followed up with

a lie

then you acted like an azz

then you lied again

She asked again why I sleep on the couch and I said its nothing don't worry about it. At which she said fine.

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then you lied again, then she lied

I would have slept in that bed..do not go to the couch anymore.

I went down stairs and got ready and decided to tell her what was really bothering me. I went back upstairs and asked her if she wanted to know why I slept on the couch and she said yes.

by this time it was to late..it was all damage control then..you were being a DAM..and i bet she saw "Old Tim" when you did that..

I told her I am tired of going to bed alone, I am tired of not having any physical contact and I keep telling you this.She said I thought we were doing better, getting along better. I said we are but I am frustrated that's all. I told you when we started MC that I feel love different than you. You see it as acts of kindness and words of affection and not that I don't like the time we have been spending together but I need physical contact.

All that stuff is nice but how would you feel if I did not talk to you for three weeks. She said she would not like that. I said that is how I feel when we go weeks without toiuching.

and this is the conversation you should have had from the get go instead of letting it fester all night....

was the couch comfortable??

She said why didn't you ask me.last night?

and why did you not ask her?? so what if she turned you down..you should be detached enough that it would not have bothered you if she did..

I sound like a wuss or needy to continue to ask you.

She said that it does not make you sound like a wuss.

I don't think asking her makes you sound like a wuss..I think not asking her makes you sound "chicken chitt"

letting your fears control you will doom you to failure..

so what if she turned you down..

alright..I'm done..quit being a DAM

you're way past that..