hi orchid! I posted on your thread just now. You are strong and doing well! Just keep it up. After H leaves, you can let yourself fall apart and have a good cry. For now, keep working the DB techniques.
I agree about the reaction to another man's interest. Yes, it isn't flattering inside. Almost like I belong to someone else, even if they don't want me right now, and I can't do it. Reminds me of that movie with Reese Witherspoon, Sweet Home Alabama, when she says "I gave away my heart a long time ago. My whole heart. And I never really got it back". That's how I feel.
I am in Colorado, and we were on the Arkansas river - it probably ends up in AK somewhere along the line. But yes, I live and play in Colorado.
Louisiana has such a rich history and culture. I see you, Orchid, as a strong, southern woman. You are stronger than you know. Like Scarlett, who showed her strength in the Civil War, and became a woman that Rhett wanted again because she stood up on her own two feet and became very attractive b/c of her inner strength. You're doing great! And WE are all going to be okay! Better than OK! We're going to become women that only a fool would leave!!
