OK...the D would happen in August....so, I was panicking.....bc to me its very soon. But, I cannot change that....you are right.
I cannot promise to be there ...... after a year. I could be there after a year if he does not go thru with the D......but, if he goes thru with it...I just don't know what that means for me - internally. I know I can be without him, I am choosing to want to be WITH him.
But, on the other hand, he did say that the day he came and when he first saw me, if he wasn't married to me and we didn't have history, he felt exactly the way he felt the very first day he saw me. After another 24 hrs, he said he had the thought of meeting up after a year apart. This is day 4 and already this morning he says "Its really impressive. YOu got up so early to study. I haven't seen that in years"
My problem is that he is not here after just 2 more days and he will leave and just go back to his own head and his own insecurities and so, no more chances to improve our communication or R or anything. Tomorrow, I will be gone from 7am to 7pm.......for work related stuff. So tomorrow is out and that leaves just Wednesday and then thursday morning he leaves.
NO TIME! But, ok....will keep cool. Thank you for reply. This has been a difficult few days.
