I I have felt the same at times despair in the dead of night what has helped me some is affirmations there is a wonderful pastor Joel Olsteen on TV he is all over the world his message is one of hope and affirmations i would tell myself in those moments I will be OK I can do this at times I still need to remind myself I can do it peace
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