Yea, I pondered over that title for a while, but this best sums up my reaction now to the current dynamics. For nine months, I had felt we were putting the pieces together when over the next three months ... Kaboom ... the pieces started coming apart ... and then they just kinda laid there until recently.
So now good things continue to happen, but I'm constantly guarded. Are the pieces really coming together this time or is it an illusion / facade. Will they end up flying apart again? Will I ever feel "safe" again in knowing that she really wants to be married to me like I did after we were newlyweds? ... THAT'S IT!!! ... Fran, that is where I'm trying to get at!
In more ways, we seem to be getting closer ... I'm just having a hard time accepting it as being real this time.
I guess it going to take time ... time for her to show me in the little ways ... ways in which even she doesn't realize what she has accomplished ... like the letter she sent to my sis for example.
