You sound like me with the analyzing. I am always trying to analyze everything H is doing. I know I need to quit, it would be so much better for me. Keep the focus on me,me,me.
The visit sounds like it is going good, and he is being nice. On the bed! WOW... If my H would have done that I think I would have fainted dead away! (lol).
I can sure relate to what you said about looking at your H. I try to look so cute, and wear his fav perfume whenever he's around hoping he can't resist. Nope. Nothing. Then I remember oh ya, he can't see me through the fog. And, as they say, we are the last one's they will connect with when they come out of it. The other day, I was looking at H and thinking "why am I so heartbroken over that". He hasn't been nice to me for a long time, and he could lose a few pounds. I have many friends that tell me I deserve so much better. They don't understand. Coming here, you are talking to others that do understand.
I know what you mean about being in a Happy Place. Gosh that will feel so good again. What a feeling that will be. I am going to GA for three weeks to visit my D, and will be away from this craziness for a while. I just have to remember not to think too much about what's going on at home.
Today was a good day. H was home all day. OMG, I just heard him tell his D on the phone that he had a wonderful day!! Wonder what was different about today. This is so crazy isn't it?! We watched sev movies together, I made cookies, and dinner. Nothing out of the ordinary. Go figure...
Enjoy tomorrow... Keep the focus on Orchid, and show him what he'll be missing!!
