Like Hoping says, this is the million dollar question for us all. You guys certainly sound like you are getting there. But where is "there". Maybe it's like the horizon you go towards it but never reach it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that we need to recognise that our M's will always consist of good times and bad times, times when we feel we connect with our S and times when we don't and maybe we will always have to keep DB'ing away.
just my 2c
Fran
if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs Erica Jong