W - I'm alive. I promise I can't come today. Can I come see you tomorrow?
JR - I'm glad u are ok. and no. u should have let me know u weren't coming today. that is rude and very inconsiderate. thats not something a "best friend" would do.
W - I'm sorry dear. i meant to. I'm at work. No? I can't come see you Monday?
JR - Meaning to and doing it are two completely different things. I'm angry with you >:(. If you were to come 2morrow, what time would it be?
W - way early angry pants round eight oclock
JR - Am or pm
W - Am dear
JR - Are you going to let me know when you are on your way?
W - Yes dear
JR - I'll see you around eight oclock then.
W - Thank you doll. Can I call you in 15?
JR - sure
W - Thank you
well i didn't know what to think. i was happy with myself for letting her know i was angry and wasn't going to just let her slide by without acknowledging it first. This is also the first time in our entire relationship that i've ever said anything like this to her. that i'm angry and told her what she did was rude and inconsiderate.
Anyways, she calls almost exactly 15 mins later (i was in shock). she asked how my weekend was and said pretty good. work was really good sat. small chit chat and such for about 2 mins then she says she has a doctors appointment tues. i asked how come and she said she has lumps on her ovaries, a lump on her arm that was super tiny before she left which has grown, and now she has one on her lower leg. i almost freaked out then asked what's going on? she didn't know and says she hasn't felt good since she left. she sorta jokingly said she was healthier when she was with me.
i asked some more questions as i was genuinely concerned. i brought up if she knew what pmdd was, (as this would explain alot about her behavior every month before her period, including this last time.) she says she's heard of it and i asked her to talk to her new doctor about it. we talked some more and then out of the blue she said she missed me. i said calmly and sincerely i miss you too. she told me she was miserable. she hasn't felt good for two weeks (the exact time she's been gone). she also said i'm the only one she's told (not exactly as she's going to her friends doctor so her friend must be aware too) about what's going on. i listened to her a little bit more then she had to get back to work (she really was at work as i could hear it in the background). i told her i'd be praying for her and she said "please do, i need it right now." she promised she would call me later and we ended the convo...
i'm really worried about my W. i know she's not happy there regardless of any update to her myspace status lol. her confessing to me she's miserable there is a big step for her and for me. i'm not going to tell her to come home or even bring it up yet tho. she said she missed me 3x during our 10 min talk, and i could really hear it in her voice.
this whole deal with lumps on her body has me worried. i told her if there's anything i could ever do don't ever hesitate to ask me. she laughed and said what could she ask? "re you going to heal me?" i jokingly said "i'm not Jesus so no i can't do that for you" she solemnly said "i wish you were." hmm.. didn't know how to respond to that one, but i just reiterated about if she ever needs anything.
Watching the phone records over the weekend, something weird has been going on. she didn't make one phone call saturday. that's completely out of character for her. besides one female friend, she didn't text anybody but me... i'm praying and GAL. but now i'm really worried about her, on a completely different level. she said her pain has been so bad the last couple days she could barely stand up and it's really interfering with her job...
this is starting to get difficult again.
one other thing, she's using some "pet names" she hasn't used since before she left.
I can't come today. Can I come see you tomorrow?
