K4D Rising

[K4D]

Well,

Here is how tonite went. We cooked food and ate desert. While we were cooking food, W tells me all about her birthday party and what she did this weekend. Apparently there were some relatives in town. I said oh, nobody told me. I would have like to have seen them. She said the relatives partied hard and slept most of the time. W tells me she is sorry I couldn't be there for her party. I told her she didn't want me there. She said it was supposed to be mainly just women, but her stepdad was there and her sisters boyfriend was there.

So during the meal she asks me what all I have to do tonite. I said I have to finish packing D7 and getting ready for the week since D7 is staying with me tonite. She said don't worry about that and that she will just come by and get D7's stuff tomorrow night and that she could use my help with getting D11 ready tonite. Ok. So after the meal she decides she isn't going to go to the store to finish getting D11 stuff and she will just do it in the morning. So we are standing in the kitchen talking afterwards and she asks me if I am going to go ahead and get D7. In other words its time for me to leave. I say yup and call D7 and we start to head out. W pats me on the back. We joke a bit heading out the door. Then I leave with D7 and now I am back at the apartment.

I was a little confused because she had said she wanted my help and then basically said it time for me to leave. I had planned on leaving without being asked. But the way things happened, that didn't occur.

She also continued to tell me about her summer plans and trips she will be taking. I told her about some great ideas of things to do with the kids. She thought they were good.

Just another reminder tonite that this is going to be a very long journey.

The dinner was great.

I am definitely praising God for my evening but at the same time realizing that he wants me to learn great patience and rely on him.

I also realized again tonite how difficult it is to be with W and hear about how great her life is going to her and know that at this time, there are no plans for me to be in it.

Back to praying and working on my faith in God as well as working on myself.

I did hug D11 and told her that I will miss her while she is away at camp.

Kevin