This weekend was a great example for me of GAL. After sending the kids off for their own weekend plans, I loaded up my gear and went rafting on Sat. I met some new friends and spent time with some old friends (of mine and H's) too. The water was running fast, and although I was kinda nervous beforehand once we pushed off I remembered the excitement of floating down the river and getting ready for the rapids. Wow - it was fun!! No one fell out and we all paddled hard when we needed to. After a long day on the river, we set up camp and went to a whitewater festival in town.
There were so many stars in the sky that night... and my friend said something to the effect of "welcome to the fountain of youth! You've known it all along; you just needed to be reminded." How true... getting away from it all, just being me and enjoying the beauty, the peacefulness... all of my 'problems' seemed very small in comparison!
A mutual friend of H and mine seemed interested in me last night. I was very uncomfortable with it, and decided to just be straightforward. Asked if he was, and he said 'kinda' and 'you're cute'. I told him I was flattered but not ready for a R. In fact, I started to cry when he tried to put his arm around me... I know I'm not ready. I wish my H would come out of his fog and realize how great we could be together. But it's not my time line... I have to let go and let God. It's completely out of my control.
I spent time with my mom and dad today and got my sprinklers going with my BIL's help today. Woohoo! It's very empowering to learn new skills, like how a sprinkler system really works, and how to change a tire, etc. I'm going to be okay. And taking time for myself is really important like I did this weekend. Can't always get away for a weekend, but a walk in the forest or biking along a trail for a bit is what I need to do for myself and peace of mind. That's my goal for the week - do more of the same!
