I've done a lot of thinking this weekend. I've replayed some of his comments to me from the other day:
1) He feels like his business and his marriage caused his health problems (two heart attacks, skin problems, hip replacement at 47). Seems like everything is an attack at me - how I've wronged him. What about how he didn't eat right and smoked?
2) He's tired of hearing the excuse that I checked out. Oh yeah and in a very sarcastic tone - "because you were mentally abused as a child."
3) Because of all he's had to go through with his health he's earned the right to not have to work a 40 hour week.
4) He feels like we're going backwards instead of forwards.
He is playing the victim. It's always the blame game. He never looks at himself. His anger and bitterness are so powerfully strong towards me I just don't know if we'll ever be able to work things out.
He's really becoming a sad, pathetic person - who I really don't like very much right now.
I guess I'm losing my hope. However, I think tonight my anxiety level has been the best it's been for a long time.
We'll see how he is when he gets home from the lake tomorrow night.
I bought the book the counselor recommended: Boundaries In Marriage by Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend. I plan on reading it tonight. I'll let you know if it turns out to be a good resource.
