It has only been 24 hrs and I think this is the hardest thing I have had to do in my life. I have to pretend that everything is fine and I have to pretend to be happy. He seems much more together right now than when I last saw him....6 weeks ago, when he handed me the papers.
He said he wants a normal couple of days before we get into R talk..... I don't know how to be normal. Are you kidding me....this is not one hour or 5 hours........this is I am living a "married life" knowing that in a day or so, I am going to have to go thru all the crap that I went thru 6 weeks ago. He is behaving very nicely......very sweet.......but, it is scaring me. He is not all over the place.....so, that just means that he has some answers and I am NOT a part of this solution.....He would have said something if I was.....
OH GOD.........I just don't know if I can bear another "ILYBINILWY talk". I just want to be put out of my misery one way or another.
I have no Idea what I am doing.....he is so sure of himself. I have been weepy......I'm trying, but damn!!!!!!!!!!
He is being very understanding.........it is really freaking me out!
