From bad to worse

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Things just keep getting better,I have not been able to see my two youngest S and D for almost a month.and after being told if I went there I would be arrested for trespass.I decided I had enough and picked them up from the school bus stop.of course the W became enraged and would not let me leave with them,but then decided to because the children were becoming upset.

just for a little history I have been asking for weeks.The W insisted on supervised visitation.I refused she insists I am unstable and a danger to myself and the children.and here is the reasoning. early on when the W dropped the D bomb I was floored totally.I proceeded to dowse my sorrow in a drunken stuper and did something I will regret forever. I told her I wanted to end my life.yes it was childish, yes it was stupid and yes I was drunk. never the less I said it.I have been in therapy for some time for depression but by no means am I a danger and I asked her to come to see my therapist for verification.she never showed so she left me no choice and at the time there were no custody orders or restraints.anyway I took the kids home they were happy to be there we played had fun and had diner.they wanted to stay and sleep in there own beds.I called the W and informed her and of course she had a fit, threatened to call the state police,call the magistrate.I assured her they were alright.I take care of these kids every day I am a stay at home Dad and she works midnite shift.

First thing in the morning the W shows up with my S's meds he has asthma she gives it to him and off she goes not even a good bye.I dress the kids take them to the school bus and I wave them off.That was very tough to do.I returned home called the wife and asked if I could have them back after school and the following day since they had off.She said she would let me know.never heard back from her but the next morning I was served papers giving her emergency custody.I freaked.in it she stated that I refused to return the children unless she moved back into the marital home.that I am a danger to myself and the children.I refused my son medication.and I threatened to move out of state.of course I am fighting this but here goes another month I don't see my children.my W and MIL have told my children I need help I am unstable.the reason they can't come home is I won't let them in the house.and have told my older sons not to come near me.and to top it off yesterday my D called who is 6 and we are very close,said she misses me and wants to come home.it just rips my heart out.I don't understand the mentality.where do you draw the line.I have been very calm through all of this.when does it stop hurting.I can't even talk to her anymore it's like I never knew her.and here comes the salt,now all the utilities are being shut off.I know she is trying to force me out but come on. anyway sorry for rambling had to get it out