SC, Go out and have some fun this evening...you've earned it.
When you least expect it, love will find you once again. You've been very honest w/your h and that's all that matters in the scheme of things.
SC, you are exactly where you should be right now on your journey. Do not question yourself...continue looking ahead!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.