That sounds great, Drew! I am glad to hear you are finally able to start having closure about your BIL. I was concerned about that. Didn't mean to appear cold toward the stitch, but sometimes we lose stuff in typing and it's hard to know exactly how it is. Anyway, you sound much better.
You did the right thing by not allowing yourself to stay in your "mood" and decided to go out to run it off. It's tempting when we feel down b/c we don't really want to do anything while we are feeling like that, so it takes a lot of self discipline.
I'm really proud of you and what you are accomplishing. I agree with your C. If you can endure the wait then there is a chance your W could turn back to you. It was not my intent to be discouraging, but you need to know it could take more time than you originally thought. I always say that if a person feels his/her spouse is worth the wait and the work, then by all means.....do it.
Take care, Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!