sandi, something that really resonated with me was putting all if this in gods hands. Can you tell me more about this? I feel that I really need god now. I understand my h and free will. I understand that he is with a new partner. I also understand that I tried hard in my marriage and that I have made mistakes. It grieves me to see what our little girl is going through. If I accept that this man isn't the nan that I married I am unsure what I stand for, what I live in hope for, a reconciliation of my family unit. What does letting to, dropping the rope, letting go and letting god mean exactly? Can you do these and leave the door open? I know that miracles happen, that in your case you came out of the fog. The script that you say he uses is it standard? I feel that there is so much alienation. The orders that I have taken out for our protection have been used against me. I know that I have to accept that he is now an alien. It's just that I miss my husband so much. Is it wrong to hope that he will return? What I do know is that I have to get myself better and I have to mind my little girl. I spoke with my counsellor yesterday and he was urging me to remember that I am entitled to someone that loves and cherishes me. All my h has done us thrown my love back at me:" I don't want your love, I reject it and don't believe in it. It us an unhealthy love and an attachment, not love. Love is an action". I as t to move forward but with truth and dignity. I am a faithful, monogomous loving person. But he truly doesn't care. I x
