Dear sandi, I am lost for words thank you so much for taking time out of your day to write. I can't tell you what it means to me. Lying in my hospital bed I gave a lot of time to think. We were in mediation on Wednesday last. I gave never been in mediation before and my concern was that because my husband is a very fine chair and orator that he would manipulate the situation for his own benefit. In dome ways he did. It became quite clear that we are at different stages of this process, he says and thoroughly convinced the mediator that he has emotionally moved on and is in a new life. I am still in grief and trying to pick up the pieces of my shattered life. He doesn't want to have anything to do with me he is with his "new partner" now and the premise is that why can't I just get over it and go away, I truly believe that it doesn't bother him where I go what I do or whether I am sick, ill or not. I could be missing and he would just carry on. He has truly deleted me from his life and his family, my step children etc. He says that he doesn't love me (does that mean he truly loves ow?) he says that we are done with each other in our lives and that are marriage is over and dead. The only way that I can get through this sandi is to firy believe that he is not well and that it's def mlc. From. Jan he has been doing totally unusual things. Buying and wearing boxer shorts, buying an iPhone and taking shots of random people on his camera in his phone. Writing to people like a teenager; "gissa ring", "skype is me". He is 54! I truly believe in my heart of hearts that no one could get over ten years this quickly except if he is in denial and the op is as you say representing a freedom and a fantasy life. He told me when he left that he has been living a life in paralysis a half life, that I have subjected him to mental cruelty and have treated him like a doormat. You are right, he is not the same person. Yet why can't everyone else see this? Is it only me? What do I tell our d? That the real daddy has gone away for a period of time? I can't do that. He is telling her that he doesn't love me anymore and that we are seperated. Life moves on and people get over it. My mum truly believes he is ill and I am now in that belief. I have to see the doc now but willvwrite more later, Thanks sandi I x
