Newbie - first post and ?s

[Gardener]

I never in my wildest dreams thought he would do this to me. I don't understand how he could just give up 17 years of marriage.

I can't sleep, eating at times is difficult - which is actually a blessing in itself as I need to lose weight anyway. But living in turmoil...the not knowing...the insecurity. It justs gets to be unbearable at times. What scares the he!! out of me is it's only been 12 days. How on earth I am going to last months or even years like this?

At times I am totally together... then there are times like now I am a mess.

Ashlee, just change the gender and the number of days it's been and you're speaking my words right now. Just wanted to let you know I'm here following along and pulling for you. You're getting plenty of good advice from others, so no advice from me right now and besides, my roller coaster's on a serious downward run right now...no, up...wait...nope, down again)