I am making my way through the book. One thing that has stuck out to me is when she talked about making the same mistakes over and over, because you are so used to doing it. It's a real eye opener.

Last night H tried to get a rise out of me. Went to dinner with a friend and said he was going to a bar after. H has a history with alcohol and quit approx 4.5 years ago. Once in a while over the years, he'd ask "what if I started drinking again?" My answer, always the same, "you drink, we're done." Needless to say when I didn't give in to his baiting and told him to be careful and have fun, he got ticked off and left without a goodbye. Came home around 11pm, wanted to ML, I was asleep and too tired, did not and he left this morning without a word and hasn't contacted me all day.

This afternoon, I find a glass in the dishwasher which he bought home last night - it's a tall bud light glass. My mind is going around in circles. Did he drink or is he trying to make me think he did to get a rise out of me? Or maybe he wants to test me or push me away by drinking again. I am not planning on bringing it up. I'll ask if he had fun and how is his friend doing. Or should I not even ask those questions and wait until he says something? How do I respond if he says he drank? He'll know I'm lying if I act okay with it.


Me: 39 H: 39
S: 15
M: 18 years
Bomb: 6/3/09
H moved out: 10/15/09
H moved back:5/30/10