Fire's burning out...just smoldering

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I hope so. And, I often wonder about the pregnancy sitch. I'm sure that didn't help with his self esteem. It's my fault, he tells me, that we had to spend thousands of dollars. All we had to do was have more sex, he said. I'm sure he resents me because of it. "See, look how easy it was to get OW pregnant. All she had to do was have lots of sex with me. You could have done that, too." The funny thing is, he told me early into our dating that he thought he had a problem. He had always had unprotected sex and never got anyone pregnant, except me...even though we lost the first one. So, I'm VERY sure he didn't PLAN to get OW pregnant. I know it. He thought he couldn't. Maybe this is God's way of paying him back and saddling him with someone that is going to turn out to be psycho beyond belief and make his life miserable. I know she did it with her first baby daddy. She was psycho and horrible to him. And, this was not that long ago, maybe 5 years ago. Maybe she's changed, but I doubt it. Look at how afraid my H is of her. He can't talk to me when she is around..even about K. He can't be far from his phone because she is texting him every 5 minutes. She controls the money and I'm sure she uses it to punish him. Maybe I just need to get a soda and some popcorn and watch the show.