he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i really make myself laugh. i guess thats a good thing.

i may remove the mailbox, i mean, who says we MUST have one? lol.

h just called, he seemed rather down, i didnt ask of course. just said, whats doing and put my son on the phone.

after he calls i always feel worse.

sometimes i think i want him back because its simply easier. does that make sense?

its easier to want him than deal with the emotions of losing him and letting go.